rmg...tuna here....still struggling mightily 10 months post-d...and 21 months post bomb....today is ex-w b-day leap year shes 11/44 today...got her gifts(too many!) from the kids and a card ....shes having dinner with s9/s16 tonite...reluctantly for s16....he hasnt slept at her apt in over 1 year....im tring to forgive/move on as she now appears to be carrying on with her co-worker married "friend" who appeared to have alot to do with this and whos car is in her driveway a real lot....her apt is a little over a mile from our house that she left) and its hard not to drive by....i guess after all this time a should be further along but im not....i just went back and read the emails we exchanged on her b-day 2 years ago and got real sad....you seem to have done tremendous in your situation and i ask that you pray for me and my wonderful boys...you were always one of my favorites around here and i dont check in that often but glad you are doing well....take care and god bless....BIG TUNA
BT,
Thank you for your kind words. This journey has been by far the most difficult I have ever undertaken.... It literally tore by heart and spirit to shreds.... Along the way, I strongly doubted I would ever recover.... Yet, God has restored my heart and spirit....
There is a song which really reflected the struggle I was going through... The Best of You... Foo Fighters... My favorite verse is bolded....
Quote:
I've got another confession to make I'm your fool Everyone's got their chains to break Holdin' you
Were you born to resist or be abused? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new? I needed somewhere to hang my head Without your noose You gave me something that I didn't have But had no use I was too weak to give in Too strong to lose My heart is under arrest again But I break loose My head is giving me life or death But I can't choose I swear I'll never give in I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel You trust, you must Confess Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Oh...
Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...
Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel The life, the love You die to heal The hope that starts The broken hearts You trust, you must Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I've got another confession my friend I'm no fool I'm getting tired of starting again Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused? I swear I'll never give in I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel You trust, you must Confess Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Oh...
When Dave sings this song live.... He has such emotion he turns on... I wonder who inspired him...
You need to let go of your exW... Based on her actions, she is not the type of woman a good man should be with... If you cannot let go, you are holding on to the life you planned... You are not embracing all God has in store for you and your children...
You need to focus on you... The man God has created you to be... Focus on your children.... You, too, will find a woman who appreciates you for the man you are...
Take Care,
RMG
Last edited by RMG; 02/29/0808:24 PM.
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." from "Good Will Hunting"
