I will try this again with a clearer head..help

[RMG77739]

I have been mostly a confident, out-going person away from her. Its just when I see her, I get some of those feelings back. But after I leave from her presence, I am fine again. Why does this happen? Am I a complete idiot?

I attribute that to what she has done... You loved her... She betrayed you... Your heart is feeling things which overrule what you know you should feel in your mind.... This is totally natural.... Do not worry about it... Just try to work on this when you see her...

I hate the idea sometimes that I can move on with my life, and then turn around for a brief period and fall back into the love and acceptance I feel for her. I would rather give that to someone else right now, because I now know some women would love to feel like that from a man.

I have been there as well.... I am NOT saying I am some sort of stud... I am NOT trying to blow my own horn.....

However, several of the gals I met along the way where really questioning my exW's judgment.... They would say things like... You are so easy to talk to... You are so open with your feelings... You are so ambitious... You are able to love a woman so deeply... I find that attractive.... Most women are looking for that in a man....

Many times, I would sit and think.... What the heck? Why is it these women see these things... about who I REALLY am... Yet, my exW has no clue? The truth is... She just did not want to see those things... She wanted to demonize me so she could blaze out of our M...... That was her choice....

My new W tells me over and over how glad she is my exW blazed off... Yesterday, as we were making our bed, she said, "I feel like Kim did not get the best of you. I did!" I said, "Kim could have had the real me as I am with you. She chose not to. That was her loss."

I FIRMLY believe you will find a woman who will appreciate you... Even more than that, I believe your W will regret her actions... That will be on her, NOT you...

Take Care,

RMG