Good bye friends

[cat03]

thanks LN, I think I finally got it through my thick head to stop fixing the past. Wasnt' intended to be, but we had one M talk this morn, perhaps the kind that should've happened that awful day. We both knew when to stop, it was rather quick and we were civil and it actually left me with a good feeling (weird).

I obviously would've want to be spared the ugliness of the other day, but in some ways I'm glad that I won't be holding out false hopes and that my feelings for him have changed and it will be easier to go through the D. Perhaps in a week from now I'll feel differently, I don't know. Since we've been physically separated for a month already, it's the 2n S and for the past half year we haven't slept together (except for 3 nights we shared a bed before he left) it will not be as devastating, hard but not mind numbing as the first time.
Eventually I pray I wont' wake up with that bit of uneasiness in my heart, it will take time, I'm not deluding myself, a D won't be painless but I can make it bearable.

Thanks all)))))))))) H is seeking his own T and we dont' talk about his issues.