Is it wrong NOT to want your W back? I wrestle with this question and sometimes feel guilty. At no time in the past four months of separation have I felt I wanted her back. I pray for her health, safety and that God will touch her heart and help her find some peace and happiness but I NEVER ask for her to be returned to me! I went through years of emotional pain and abuse, it seems just too much for me to ask for that R back. I just can't imagine her being any other way than she is, selfish, self-centered, hurtful, impatient, uncompromising and unloving. When I look back at what I endured from this woman while I tried to save the R, be a better H and father, build a loving family etc I just can't see myself opening my heart to her again. She has damaged me in so many ways and I now have to put my full self into healing that, building myself up again. It just seems like too much to even comtemplate a R with her again. How do you DB when you don't want your S?
