oh sweety)))))))))))))))) teens are so self-involved, almost borders in alienation towards the parents. My kids are small & still think I'm "it", lol, I know I'm on borrowed time so I'll enjoy them now before they roll their eyes and want their privacy and push me away in an efford to find independence, I know that time will come.
Your s15 is becoming a man, and men are very good at internalizing and not let you in and not really see how you feel. I was reading a bit of "mars-venus for parents" and it is true, the stuff you learn about how to treat your H in the mars-venus series also apply to your kids.
This morn for example I decided " I will not hammer s10 about the stuff he has to do, I will ask nicely and in a nice voice" The way he is shaping now will determine what kind of H he will be to someone some day.

The kids have prob no earthly idea how much it affects you to be without H, so don't count on them to listen to you anymore hon. I'm in good spirits but I know I will be seeing a C at some point, do you see someone now and then? it might do you good.

Tons of hugs your way))))))))))) I'm listening and I do care how you are doing toots \:\)


Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.