Got home last night to an email from H...of course he can't call my cell phone cause I might answer and he might have to hear my voice...I had asked him to take S10 to school this morning cause D15 had to be at school early....H said he was "unavailable" to do it. JERK!!(venting there)..and he said he was putting in a floor at his parents house this weekend and was making sure there were no kids ball games...well, I did not answer him.. if he can't call and talk to me about our children then tough crap....
Will somebody please explain to me a couple of things..first/why can't they call, H has talked to me every day for 29 years, now all of a sudden he can't talk to me..2nd/I think I'm really going crazy here...H to me acts bizzare and I believe he is MLC...when he is with his family and friends he acts like the man I married...so does he really just dislike ME or what...he will talk to the kids but not every day...and then it is only for 2 minutes..has not called D21 in 4 weeks. That is sad to me...his mom thinks he's ashamed and doesn't know how to get back....I think he's heavy in "love land" and doesnt care about me...and why doesn't he miss us after 29 years....it just makes me feel like I'm the one in la la land.
I do want to get where I can give it to God, and I do have a very strong faith....but sometimes it feels like God is letting me down...and I know it's H that's letting me down..I was actually yelling in the car this morning...said I didn't want to play this game anymore...I want off the rollercoaster (I never liked them anyway)...HHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
Ok, so just venting.....
But....I am going to the basketball game tonight with some friends..our schools team is in the district finals. these are the kids at the school I work for...they are like my kids...they've been asking me to go,...so I am...
Treese
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
