Update to my sitch, the end has come

[mako_man]

She asked me to bring the kids out to see her in the facility on Sunday, 2 hour drive for us so I am going to make a day of it with the kids. Spoke to her last night, she is concerned about "having nothing" when she gets out, no money, job, mountain of debt. She will also be living with her sister. She also acknowledged that she still has a lot of sh*t to go through, the remaining custody battle, divorce, finding a new job, finding a place to live with no credit, etc. I have never asked her once to come back since she left 9 months ago, but I still cannot tell if she has that in her mind. She still sounds somewhat determined to try things on her own again, which to me sounds like the same old failed life she just left. Why would she not at least acknowledge to me that with a lot of work and dedication perhaps we COULD bring this family together again? Its not so much that shes playing hard to get, its like she is admitting that she has so sabotaged our marriage that I will never be able to trust her again (she has said that), and she may be right, i dont know. But, either way its going to be a hard road, I dont understand why she wouldnt focus on a road that brings the family back together for everyone's sake. I dont quite know how to react to her when I go on Sunday, besides the day when I checked her into rehab I havent really seen her in many months, this will be hard for me.