save a spot, will be here at some point

[cat03]

unbroken, thanks so much for your reply. I also don't have much of a choice and woulnt' want to be with him anyways. Trying to be objective and not to despair, I'm looking for a mediator as we speak. Since we'll be filing a no-contest D I think in my state we both have to file.

I still sort of feel I'm in the twightlight zone, I'm going through the motions as if it were not happenign to me. It only feels real when Ihave to tell people, I had to tell my friend today, a friend from church yesterday and next week... my son, my sweet sweet boy. Then, my family, it's actually going to hurt them more than me when tell them, I know they'll be outraged and will hate the borg's guts (he no longer is a H to me, thus the nickname). Theyv'e seen me go out of my way to make H happy, drive around, get stuff for him, trying to do things he liked, etc etc. hope next week is over fast.