wow i just sat a cryed. thank you. ,your message is why i come here. to vent and get strengh. all to often i come face to face with my W and loos any big picture view. thanks again. i will be strong when she finds reality a little diffrent then i do, and i will tell her im sorry. becsuse no matter if im misunderstood or not, in the end im sorry the message i sent was not the one recived.