You're right..I have been looking ahead, just seems so far away. I keep trying to remember that this is a trial...and to pass it with faith will heap tremendous rewards later. I just wish later would come soon. But, I also know its in His time..I think He wants me to let go completely before I see the benefits of patience.
I have been mostly a confident, out-going person away from her. Its just when I see her, I get some of those feelings back. But after I leave from her presence, I am fine again. Why does this happen? Am I a complete idiot?
I hate the idea sometimes that I can move on with my life, and then turn around for a brief period and fall back into the love and acceptance I feel for her. I would rather give that to someone else right now, because I now know some women would love to feel like that from a man.
I guess I just need to find another way....God has sure helped me so much, maybe I need to lean on Him a little more.
