My husband is having an affair

[alwayshoping]

Wow, I am honestly overwhelmed with the support that I get from here. This time in my life has been quite humbling to me as I never thought I would be in this situation. And I feel fortunate to have people like you offer advice unconditionly. Somehow and I don't know how...I have mustered up the strength most of the time to do the right things and be positive and cheerful...I did freak out the first week and had a small pity party for myself last week in front of him, but other than that I have been trying to be what I used to be and show him that I can change. I have not been the most approachable person in the past and have had the tendancy to be controling and actually feel that I made him feel worthless. Not good! When I realized that my emptiness was about me and not him...I was so mad at myself and even more mad now that I have to compete with some thing new...the OW. My H had always been good to me, but never really told me that I made him feel worthless so I didnt realize. I am doing everything I can now as I can't change the past and have truly learned alot about myself. It's these times of crisis that we grown and I needed to. I am just praying that my lessons learned are not to late and that I can have a second chance at keeping the person that I truly believe is my soul mate.