I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

Things are ok - I've been pretty down, but partly PMS I think. I'm having a real hard time figuring out what my attitude is - use the power of positive thinking or truly let go? I can't hold both in myself at the same time. I have C tomorrow, but don't really want to explore this - I feel kind of stupid.

I gave him the t-shirt when he came by my office to sign the tax forms - I made no fuss about it, but I think he was glad to get a gift.

Yesterday was the most contact I've had with him in ages. We had another big storm. He left me vm at work to ask if I needed the roof cleared (my satellite dish gets blocked - can't have no TV!). When I had a chance to call him back, he was already at the house. He took care of the roof and several other things that I mentioned were issues I needed to deal with. He not only spent quite a bit of time doing that, but he called me a couple of times to tell me what he was doing and I kept telling him how much I appreciated it. When I finally got home from work, I was debating calling him to say thanks again when the phone rang - he actually called me again! He just wanted validation of his work. I'm not reading much into it, but he hasn't called me with no reason for a very long time. I used it as an opportunity to let him know about some of my GAL activities - my H wouldn't have a clue if I am out dancing every night or sitting home drooling. Anyway - I joined a book club at my church and they are coming here tomorrow night. We don't usually have people over to the house (I'm not anti-social, but self conscious about dog hair, etc), so that is new. And I went to a show Monday night with my niece, so I mentioned that. I love to go to plays so that is no change, but I wanted him to know that I am getting out socially and not pining away. We actually had a nice, upbeat talk and I felt positive about it.