Aaaaah! You know what? He is doing those things...

Came a fixed my shredder after I put too many expired credit cards in it!

Thought that was nice.

I agree, talk is highly overrated. and I DO want actions to occur right after the talk as well....

Yup, want him to tell me how much he loves me, blah, blah, blah...as well! LOL!

He buys me small presents...but well thought out ones...a CD or DVD that he KNOWS I will like...etc...so different than before when he would spend oodles of money...I loved the presents then as I do now...but now I know that he didn't spend an outrageous amount on stuff.

I think the "talk" is gonna be bad either way...but I am not gonna push it. It is hard to stay and wait patiently...but maybe that is one of the things I am supposed to learn from all of this...

He does not tell me he loves me and I don't tell him I love him either...but I guess it shows in the things that he does for me...except that I am the kind of person that needs to hear "I Love you" all the time...makes me feel special. But, oh well...for now, gotta live without it.

There are times I wonder if he will ever be even a fraction of the loving person he once was. Not that I want him to be the same...just wonder if we will ever be close again, if we will ever truly be friends, even.

Best not get ahead of myself and work myself into a tizzy!

Thanks for your words...

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller