BT - Here's one more guy out there who's walking this right beside you. Our situations and feelings are very similar. It helps me to know I'm not alone, I hope you get some comfort from that too.
I'm a total mess over things right now and can't seem to find the strength to post anymore, but I still read your situation.
You're a good man and you're going to be ok. Keep it up!
Me:37 WAW:35 M:10 T:15 Ds:9, 5 She Dropped Bomb:9/02/07 Both still at home