Up and down we go, where it stops, nobody knows

[SirPrizeMe]

Speaking of dreamland...
I am thinking forward a couple weeks. Right now I am restrained from speaking to my wife, and my kids.

I expect this restraint to be lifted at the hearing. After that, I suppose W and I will have mroe contact - in email, on the phone and so on.

I am trying to think how to play it. I'd like to just treat the whole thing lightly and with humor. I am dreaming of a time when I can crack a joke about it, and break the tension for her. If I had a million dollars I would buy her a castle and a tank and tell her she could feel safe inside those things. I'm looking for some way to communicate that, now that the restraint is done and rejected, I am not ticked, I am not unbelievably hurt. I'm just standing, solid, I'm still here.

It's dreamland, because, who knows? maybe the restraint order will be permanent. Maybe she will never talk to me again and every time we communicate it will be through attorneys. Those things might happen, too. But I can dream, can't I?

If she sees that I will stand and be the rock through this domestic violence thing, maybe she will consider than I could stand and be the rock through the rest of our storms, too.