Sorry you are having a down day Alison, do you see a pattern to these days? maybe pinpoint a reason (I know not always possible) but it may help you to look back over your posts and see how long you stay positive for before you go down again. Are the gaps getting longer-if not how can you keep your resolve going for longer? I know you have an active social life and don't like being alone and I have said before you need quiet alone time to really be happy with the "Finally letting go". You are right our kids are no substitute for a partner but for now thats the way it is-no partner. and as my mum always said "if wishes were horses beggars would ride" Are you seeing a counsellor who could maybe help with how you feel about being alone. Talk to your kids about how tired you are they need honesty from you and make up a rota, they should be helping around the house and relieving you from some chores after all they benifit from your working. They won't like it but stand your ground set and keep rules! This will also stand them in good stead for when they fly the nest. So you are actually doing them a favour. Exhaustion is so debilatating and doesn,t help your mood swings so they will benifit from a happier you. Leave H out of the equasion. He is gone for now maybe for ever. Being a single mum is hard but we have to remember we are not alone in this. Count your blessings tomorrow is another day.
