Finding my way out of the dark

[mishka422]

mmf - She actually forgot to pick your D up? Oh heavens! How did your D react?

I really am glad that H wants to spend as much time as he does with S13. He spends more time with him now that he ever did when he was living at home. I don't want him to feel like I'm trying to control him. I guess changing the schedule without consulting me first is probably going to be the norm for him since everything is all about him anyway. I would love to take my son out for some fun but we're flat broke right now so I guess it's going to be popcorn and movies on the couch. He doesn't really like to hang on the couch for very long even watching a movie but we'll see how long he can make it.

I was planning on taking him to an arena football game(got my cousin's season tickets) on Saturday afternoon but if H wants to take him in the afternoon Saturday that is out too. Gees, all my darned plans for the weekend are messed up because of my darned selfish H! I just don't know what the heck to do about planning my life when I can't count on him to do anything he agreed to do. I don't want my son to suffer because of it either. He loves spending time with his dad - of course he's "fun dad" so he would love it - but does it always have to be on H's terms just so I don't ruffle his poor little MLC feathers?

I guess I just resent the fact that he walked out on me and our son and is still managing to exert control over my life. I can't even have control over my own time without him in the house! AARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just completely frustrated tonight.