But you are saying so many of the right things. There are people who came on with me who still can't articulate the thoughts that you put forth here. Now that's sad.
Speaking of talking. I used to talk to my SIL for hours. She was my lifeline for a couple of months. And she had just lost a brother to suicide. And the next person I spoke with was my uncle who had lost my aunt 6 months earlier. Finally, I spoke with a friend who I hadn't spoken with for 10 years. I was in graduate school with this fellow. He had gone through a similatr things years before I met him. These were people I trusted and respected and their messages were all similar. Basically, be the best you can be. You will come out stronger and a better person no matter what happens.
And even with all that help and then finding this board, it was still difficult not to be a mess. I had a quick girlfriend who told me how wonderful I was, then told me she needed me...argh..and that was that. I was angry, angry because I was hurt. But I always told myself to move forward. Of course, my former Mrs know not to bring a certain someone around. But as long as you do have a forward direction, things will work out better than you can imagine at this point.
Good luck. You have taken some big steps in your thinking.
IMP
PS - You have some great counsel with Pam, Betsey, and Meredith. And remember...there's no need to fear...Underdog is here!
