I'm keeping up my positive attitude.. even though H said something that irked me today.. I'm looking at it that I'm not suppose to listen to what he says but focus more on what he does.. but just so that I remember what he said that irked me I'm going to just give a coles notes version.
H and I both wear braces. He also needs surgery for his jaw. He had an ortho appt today and called me afterward to tell me about it (which was nice.. he's including me a lot more in his daily life).. anyway, he got on the topic of the surgery and how he'd likely need to take a couple of weeks off while his mouth is wired shut... so he'd likely just work from home.. but he'll have to get internet for the apartment so that he can actually get work done from home. Of course I said that sounded like a smart idea.. but in my head I'm saying "this is your home.. with me and D2 and we already have internet!!!".
Anyway, other than that. I'm reading "For Women Only" and am feeling like a complete failure as a wife. I've realized I did so many things wrong in my marriage.. it makes you want to run out and apologize.. but I won't. It would likely fall on deaf ears at this point anyway. What I did do though was email H this morning as I was listening to my ipod.. and thank him for the groovin' tunes. I told him I really appreciated it. He responded with a "cool".. and that I would likely really like a specific dj mix. Other than that he also emailed me to tell me that his teeth were killing him from his tightening... I affirmed.. said I knew how he felt since I had my ortho appt last week.. he responded.. can't remember what he said but wasn't important enough to warrant a response so I didn't reply...
He called tonight. We cracked a couple of jokes with each other.. you know, friendly, non feeling, non relationship, non marriage conversation. I wished him a good night and he said see you Friday. He asked to switch from Monday, Wednesday to Tuesday and Friday with D2 this week.
I'm keeping a positive attitude (although as I mentioned that book really has highlighted all of the errors I made in our marriage... but I'm learning... I'm learning... I'm learning - I need to keep reminding myself of that) and I'm holding NO EXPECTATIONS.
Hope you all have a wonderful evening. It's official. We are more than half way through the week. Phew!
