I agree with Jeff and Michelle and I think everyone else on your thread that to restart or renew your relationship with BF that you have to start as friends. I don't think we are able to just jump back in from where we left off because it's been severed. Something wasn't working in the old scenario.. so instead a new more familiar friendship begins.. with patience that friendship will once again become the loving relationship that you are waiting for.. only this time it will be stronger and more beautiful!!
You've been doing wonderfully... we all have down times... just try to hang in there, please! I truly see progress being made in your situation!
W2G
PS. Please email me and let me know all the info I'll need to give you. My email address (without the spaces) is nikisings @ hotmail.com