It is and is not me. I have my own "stuff" to own, but regardless, even if I was the "perfect" wife (do they exist?) I could not have prevented this.
NG,
Sadly these L's tell me they do not practive in my county. I have gotten a referal from a friend of mine. After last night I think I will let him do what he needs to and be patient.
Peace,
It is wierd that H even says he's not sure that getting away from me will make him happy (of course he want to see though). He is insightful enough to know he is broken. What he does about it is up to him.
Gman,
If I do nothing else, I will hold my head up.
I think he was surprised to hear that I was not backing down even after I initiated last nights convo. Initially, I think he thought I was going to say let's do this as quickly and cheaply as possible (which, I intended to do). Somewhere in the convo I was lead in a different direction. I was surprised to hear myself say that I didn't want this and I wouldn't help. I know we all talk about that here, but I did not plan on going in that direction when I spoke with him. I was done. While I know he still is. I feel compelled to stand my ground in a way that I was ready to relinquish yesterday.
We'll see what happens. It's kind of a popcorn moment, you know? Like in the movies when you get to the part wher you can't wait to see how it ends and if you have popcorn the suspense can make you keep eating it kind of automatically.
