I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

I love that I can come here and vent. I do not think for an instant that you were telling me I was wrong for what I was feeling and I understand how hurtful those felings are to my own mental health. I am so happy to have someone to discuss things with other than those close to me who while very few know some, none know as much as I have written here.

As far as PMA today, well I can't say I have done a whole heck of a lot. I haven't been down but I haven't really done anything special either, D4 is already in bed with her neverending fever. H is working until 8. I am doing laundry! Tomorrow the EAP counsellor at work is supposed to call me to set up my individual sessions, I had asked to meet with him to discuss how to work on me in particular as opposed to the MC who we are seeing for the M. I did get an email from a friend in another office of my work today saying that I was right about the rumor mill(y I want no one to know) she heard today that I must be sick because I am getting so thin.

"I see so many positives in your sitch. Your H seems to be giving quite a bit of effort towards repairing the R." It is because of this that I am afraid to have the boundaries discussion which is going to seem controlling (see #1 complaint) It is hard to set the boundaries when i am not sure that there are any being broken. Yes the boudary was blown out of the water by texting from our vacation, but has it happened since? Who knows? As we discussed they do need to have contact at least at work, to my knowledge there is no contact outside of that. We have not ML since the whole cake eating boudary discussion earlier this week, but it hasn't come up yet either. I do know he should delete her as a friend on facebook, which he hasn't but he says she doesn't even have a computer now that she moved out. Doesn't want to be the bad guy.