I feel so crummy today. I really feel like there is little hope. This girl meant the world to me is gone. After a long term relationship, she wigs out, wants no part of me and won't even tell me what really happened (possibly forever based on the no-contact order)... I know I had shortcomings but I gave her so much. I have improved myself, and I keep working on it but I feel so empty doing it. I cant help but feel hopeless. My marriage was the most important thing in my life. She was the most important person in my life as well. I'm so frustrated that I'm being treated this way and the pain is so deep. I want to find some way to reconcile as rediculous as it sounds or at the very least some closure.
