Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

Hi RTL! Thats fine, I am amassing an astrological research base here! There are a few people who seem to have "cosmic marriages", which is interesting. I have to say though, its hard to do anything more than a cursory glance as it takes hours to read the charts and interpret and draw conclusions..I can do it for me, my BF, my sister etc, becuase I spend hours looking at it ! I know the charts and the sitchs intimately enough to draw conclusions. Its harder with strangers. But like Darboyd, I can give you some general pointers! I love astrology, its nuts, it makes no logical sense, I cant explain it, yet I DID sit in bed with my BF a few years back (in 2004?) and tell him that something major was going to happen around the eclipse in September 2007...we would either split up or get married (I feared the former, he offered for us to do the latter).
Anyway...

Thank you, really, I know I keep moaning in the past few days (week !?) and some people must read all this and think, what does she have to moan about !?? But I feel this tremendous pressure building up..its like I am rushing toward something, a cliff, or the edge of a huge waterfall... I can sense this feeling of urgency and then there will be a tumultous time, and then...I will be floating downstream hanging onto a log :-)

I am stressed that my tenants were yelling and threatening me with sueing me for harrassment...now I know how all you M people feel being hit by L action in your Ds, with unfair allegations about your kids and stuff...its so stressful !!! I havent harrassed them at all, they tell me stuff needs fixing, I arrange times/dates to go fix stuff, I go do it...then they say they are not having a right to "quiet enjoyment". They're mad ! I even bought and installed a washing machine for them, becuase they demanded one !

I have been rereading my BF latest emails to me (phew, theres so many !) we have had a glut of contact, thats for sure. I feel like an ungrateful brat moaning that its not the right TYPE of contact, I am well aware that there are many here that would be everso grateful for what he has given me lately. Its just that I dont believe he is confused...well, I suppose he could be by me, it is wierd that he keeps asking "are you ok" or "hope you are ok?" he keeps asking ! And I never tell him, until today.

I was feeling a bit green earlier that he will get 100k if he sells the house...then I remembered, hes only got that becuase he inherited it when his Dad died. So yes, he'll make a 100k, but he hasnt got a Dad anymore. So I feel guilty for thinking that.

BUT..who knows how things could've been different if we'd sold when it was originally on the market? We wouldnt have had all these financial worries, it wouldnt have been so stressful, we could've gone round the world! Oh the ifs and buts and regrets drive you nuts right, if you let them!

I'm not sure whether to reply in the morning to his "erm, good luck!"...tell him that I had to call the Police and didnt do the viewing, but say some more positive things too !? Hmm..is getting a bit dangerous, I think I have got to that thing I have heard others speak of...I am in danger of backsliding !