H never came back from Iraq, part 3

[MichelleLT]

I am thinking of writing my H an apology. The goal here would be to convey no expectations, but just to validate his feelings about what went wrong the last couple years and to do a 180 on several fronts.

He was always the letter writer. Granted, it was always romantic stuff. But he was always the one to do those things, and he was the relationship temperature taker - I never had to think about things because for me, this whole R was easy and natural, things just seemed to be going along smoothly. Plus, he has accused me a couple times of never apologizing for anything. This makes me very defensive as I can list off numerous occasions, recent and not so recent, that I have apologized, but can think of few where he has. However, I also realize there are many occasions where he felt slighted but I did not apologize because I didn't think I had to. Not terribly mature of me.

At any rate, my going to law school put a HUGE strain on our R. I was always busy with school and always wanted him to attend functions with me instead of doing the things we used to enjoy together. Last summer he finally told me how neglected he'd felt and that I put everything and everyone else before him.

So, that's the topic I'm thinking of for this letter. A real letter, that I would either mail or drop off at his place. But I want help writing it of course because I'm crappy at editing my own stuff lol.