fig, I'm pretty bullheaded too. maybe that is part of it. lol.
pam, I'll tell you, it was NICE to hear. I have heard sorry (even sincere ones) off and on. but this just seemed to come with such realization on his part about the hurts that he has caused me. again, my job is to not read more into it...now that is hard to do...and while I'm not perfect at that, at least I recognize it, so that is something.
something else I've recognized today...I actually am happy that he is sad. I don't think I realized it, but I've been forced to slow down and that has made me think more. I am happy he is sad. because it makes sense to me...its logical to me that he would be. I still hate that he is in pain, but glad that he is at the same time. that is an interesting thing to admit to myself.
I don't mean I'm glad in a "vendetta" way. I guess I just mean I think its an emotion he should feel, given all that has gone on. and yeah, there is the part of me that thinks if he deals with it/goes thru it/feels it, we have a better chance of still working things out. that might be delusional, who knows. but I guess to me its a step at least. even if it turns out not to be a step towards us, it still feels like progress.
so there is some real honesty with my afternoon tea
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
