Helloooo...Smoother Ride....Where Are You?? - Pt.2

[SueS]

Hi all-

Yoyo & Joie....thanks for the hugs. Feels good!!

Joie- To answer your questions... The family coming are H's, not mine, so he will be around. Yes, he does seem to try to throw crumbs my way to keep me happy. Thing is though, that I've been trying to distance myself a bit from the up/down emotions that his doing that would typically bring. When he does that, I picture in my mind some of the things he's done or said in the past. Maybe that's not right, but it's the only way right now that I can keep myself from being drawn in to just be hurt again. When I let him know that I knew what was going on with the email/phone calls, I was decent/nice after that.

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Journaling..........
Didn't realize that it had been 2 days since I'd been on. Actually, I've been on and reading, but not posting. I've been working on getting some things done around home. Nothing major, just things that need to be done. I need to tackle some financial things too so that can be put in order. It needs to be done and it will give me peace of mind also.

Have had some good one-on-one time with D3 lately due to H's lack of involvement. H has been good when with D3, but the quantity of time just isn't there.

Monday H went to work out very late and was on the pc all hours of the night. H told me yesterday that he'd be working an hour or so late (until 7:00 pm) so he could get off early on Friday. He's going to yet another concert. H got home at 10:00 pm. Claims he was at a local establishment down the road. Didn't ask why. Angers me mostly because he could have had time with D3 if he'd been home earlier. That's why he originally took earlier hours a few days a week. H seems to have be drifting further away again and I believe spending more time with OW. I'm not ready to exit my M yet, but am tired of the pain. I did get a good cry in last night. Felt good to release that.

D3 is just about a month away from being my D4. I'm getting excited for her! We'll have to start planning on what to do for her b-day.
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Thanks for listening everyone!!

SueS