Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

I'm so sorry, but I just dont see it that way, I dont understand how anyone could..it almost feels a little delusional, do you know what I mean? At what point do you actually just have to accept, this person has left me 4 months ago and never uttered a word of regret or doubt about it. Yes he hasnt seemed that happy and has been drinking alot, but to be honest, thats him! Thats what hes like when hes not happy, or in a R, he was like it when we were first friends. I always found his melancholic nature endearing and he is also funny (tears of a clown). So its not necessarily any sign that he regrets losing me. He never phones. He doesnt really ask questions (I was amazed at the "are you ok?") hes chatty and friendly, but THATS AS FAR AS IT GOES. I dont know how healthy it is to keep kidding oneself that we could get back together.

Some of you still live under the same roof, thats hopeful. Some of you still have children and that binds you. Some of you including those two groups are in MC, thats amazing. I am an ex GF. My exBF has never wanted to go to MC, or discuss our R at any point. Yes he emails me, but he wont even tell me where hes living. He doesnt appear to miss me. I dont get it Jeff, really I dont. How is there any hope in this situation, it just feels to me that he is long gone and shows no desire to even sit and have a meal with me, never lone ever be romantic with me again. It hurts so much.

I'm sorry, I think I'm in pain today. Wanted to add, thanks Jeff, for trying. :-/ (((Jeff)))

My tenants texted to report a water leak and no gas supply, so I phoned her immediately..she then started shouting at me and threatening me with the fact that I was on speaker phone with 5 witnessess and that they were gathering evidence for her lawyer and were going to do me for harrasment. I am still shaking.