Well, I have made an appointment with the vet tomorrow at 2.30pm to put our dog down. I will be extremely sad, and will surely cry yet another day....but I think this was my limit to helping her and I cannot do anymore for her.
I told H I was changing the date to tomorrow and he got a bit angry and said, well, I don't know what my 'agenda' is like tomorrow and I think you could have some consideration for that...I said, well if you want to be there I'm sure you'll make sure you make it, if not then I will go by myself..he got angry.
I have talked to my 2 dearest friends about last night and about the TM I sent...they both said that I cannot stop him interacting about OUR stuff with ow...SO...I think that I can set a boundary about him not talking to ow in my house, but that is IT...I cannot tell him that some things are none of her business...because they are now in a relationship and therefore his business is her business...
what I have found out is that NOTHING is private between me and H anymore...ow will always know about it.
Also, my friend said to me, 'Cinders, it does not matter how much you try to be sweet and kind...he didn't leave you for YOU, he left his LIFE...he didn't want the responsibility, he didn't want to be tied down....he wanted to be free to do what he wants. ow fits perfectly into this...but I don't. Will he ever have regrets ? I have NO idea, for he is not thinking about this at all !
Oh well, I hope you understand.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
