I didn't get upset at all which kind of shocked me. I practiced all afternoon (thanks Jack )with how I would open the convo (in the mirror when I could) and went over things I wanted to say. Of course, during the convo I ad libed and said things that are not considered good DBing.
I did not go into this convo with the hopes of salvaging anything for myself except my self respect. I am surprised at how I feel today and I don't understand why. I will think and pray on this. All I can say is I feel that I am being watched over in a spectacular fashion. My sense of calm astounds me.
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It will be a while. But I do believe it will come. It might be sooner than later for you, b/c you are calm cool and collected, and not throwing spanish curses at him
I don't know that it will come for him. He is so closed off. Maybe in my case Spanish curses would have helped.
One of the things that my DB coach shared with me is that sometimes when there's alot of arguing etc b/c of the passion involved there's a better chance than M's like mine. We didn't argue and I was his anger, he was my fear. I'm not afraid anymore. There is nothing else he can do to me that will put me back there. I've lost him. I no longer have to be afraid. I just have to look at my feet.
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You and your H, at least speak to each other nicely, and don't want to stab each other soo ,
He doesn't really talk at all. I'm the one that is nice. I told him last night that I expected him to talk to me and would card him (privately) about it. While I can't speak for him... there have been times when I want to physically beat him. Now there's restraint.
)with how I would open the convo (in the mirror when I could) and went over things I wanted to say. Of course, during the convo I ad libed and said things that are not considered good DBing. 
