I just did one of those types up a whole page and pushed the wrong %^$# button and lost it all.
ONE MORE TIME.
Thanks everyone.
I don’t know why but I kind of feel relived. I don’t know why. Yoyo, she will never go to anyone to take care of her depression. She has taken the “tests”. On line. Well I can say never se all know you can never say never but it is highly unlikely. I may have left some things out I don’t know how other are able to take dictation about their conv.s. She did tell me she loved me. But did not feel intimate towards me. I also feel the she feel bad and low about her affair with the other man I feel that she feels she was used. When I brought it up. (And yes I know I should not have but...) she did not defend him. The look on her face was acknowledgement. She also did say that Menopause may be the reason for her lack of intimacy… Ok another positive that she acknowledges... a long long time ago…. Back in April. She was ready to leave. I think if we did not have son she would have. I think she thought OM was her night in shining armor. What happened? I don’t know. Has my life style change affected her? Did she see through him? I don’t know I really don’t care. What I do know is that we are in a much better place then we were back in April. I know Saffie that I need to not bring up the Om and move on. I think the thing that will seal the deal on that part is if I can get her to commit to not seeing him again while we are married. I know this in not the time to shoot for this. But that one thing will let me know that at least she is willing to work on our marriage. I am going to let this sink in and let the dust settle for a few days. I do think the door is open. I did tell her that I was thinking about leaving a few weeks ago but my support group. (You guys) talked me out of it. I think this does let her know that I am not a door mat and the possibility of me leaving is real. I did tell her that I lost everything before (first marriage). So I am not scared of that. The only things that worries me is our son and paying back my Mom for the loan on the house. and making a decision not knowing where she is coming from. I asked her does she think I should be making decisions by myself that affects both her and our son. She said no. I said I agree.
Ok enough to this morning.
OH YEA MY TRUCK PASSED SMOG…….. What a good day yesterday was. I am off to read what my scope said for yesterday and what is in store for today.
Later Dr Love
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
