Ok, a part of my moving forward for this year was implemented last night!!!!
I have a couple of shelties entered to show in March. They need more practice than we are getting right now so for the first time since my ex and my ex friend started flaunting the affair at the training club I went back to the club!!!
Of course it was tight last night and my friend and I ended up right behind where they were sitting.
It was sort of wild. Looking at that man I have no sense of EVER having been married to him!!!!!!!!!!!!
I see the two of them and know they are people who would stab a person in the back and not good or kind people and it is just sort of an ick feeling. But not that pain and feeling of connection and familiarity that I used to have when I saw him. I never thought I would get to this point and I am soooooo glad I am here!!!!!!!!!! It is a great place to be!
I was on top of the world last night driving home. It felt so great to have taken that step at last. I didn't realize that was a step I really still needed to take to move forward even more.
It felt pretty good to get the dogs back out at the club last night as well. There weren't many people there that I know anymore. One guy there who has quit a rep at the club for fooling around was hanging with J and D's all evening. He, his wife and I used to be friends and he didn't speak at all last night. But you know what? Knowing what kind of person he turned out to be that isn't a loss. Guess birds of a feather flock together!
There were a few people there that I spoke too and of course all of them know what happened so it is interesting seeing how people reacted with all the players in the building.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
