Thanks a lot for the support. I had quite a good cry after posting here and then went out with a running group that I just joined last week. Got a short email from my W. re: her appreciating my openness in the MC today and that she was totally drained. She thought we might book another session sooner than the one month mark and sent some times for her availability. Heck, she even offered to book it.
I sent her a reply and kept it on the same level. Briefly responded to something from the session today but kept it to 2 lines. I feel better having done this. Although she may be in MLC and is going through something I don't fully understand, I have always seen her as a good person. It's weird to say but I just mean I have always been able to see that aspect of her inside. She is a lovely woman even though this whole business is causing so much pain and angst for both of us. It is hard to know that in her own way she too is really hurting in deep way, and it feels really hard / painful not to be able to comfort someone who I love very dearly.
Thanks for the pointers and reminders to try to build on the things I can in my own life, guys. I am trying. I have read others saying this is the hardest thing they've ever gone through in their lives, and I can certainly add my name to that list.
This board and all of you who have contributed to this thread have been a really key part of my support system. Thank you for your caring. I find this a safe place to share and try my best to get grounded. I really am trying.
