Meredith..your 5 years continuned.

[cagzmom]

PLEASE do not fall into this trap! When I asked the question, I meant, "looking back, were YOU honestly fulfilled?" I think that in our crying over what we have lost, we conveniently forget that "oh yeah, it really wasn't so great." I am sad that your first response is to talk about how YOU messed up.

The problem for me when I look back is I was pretty happy. REAL happy..BUT yes there are wonderful blessings that have come from him not being in my life (as messed up as that is). Not living with a manipulator and liar #1. AND I do NOT mean that in a mean way. He has admitted --- that is who he has become. His words "i have become the master manipulator..." What I thought was real for 20 years has now been told to me was not so. However, it seems such a farse...as I never know what is truth and what isn't.

Did you happen to watch Dr. Phil today? It is the engagement series (Dr. Phil house). Watch it if you can (we have replays of today's show at night here...don't know if you do, too). He said some interesting things about what we are willing to sacrifice to be in a relationship, when really we should be wanting the best for ourselves.

Yes flaw #1 when I love evidentally I give up what is good for me....

Mission: Make Cagzmom's realize her self worth.

It has been a search - let me tell you! I can tell you that today I CAN tell you good things about me. AND I am gaining little strides here and there. Old habits die hard you know??