el,

Thanks for your take on the L. i'll keep it in mind.

Jack,

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Plan accordingly to see if you can say what you need to say without emotion.


I've been working it most of the afternoon. I text him to let him know I'd like to talk to him tonight and to ask if he had any idea when he would get here. I still haven't had a response. I sent it twice b/c he usually answers fairly quickly. It's been several hours now.

I feel ok, not real edgy, so whatever happens this is what I have to do.

Ultimately this is all about our D's. That is foremost in my mind.

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Do not falter, it wasn't going to get easier, it might get harder, look to your feet right now, not down the road.


Thank you for this. It gave ma a peaceful kind of strength.

It has taken me awhile to get here. Let's see if I can live up to my name and namesake.