Purr, You are still very much attached as I was at your time. I know you don`t want to hear this or accept it but there will come a time(and it takes time) when you realise that you are your own man. Even if every one else in the world lets you down realise that YOU will never let you down. Believe me after 9-1/2 months I have finally got there and I am still working on it (but it`s getting easier) I remember when I first came here paralysed with fear because like you I felt the bottom had dropped out of my world. Everyone tells you to be strong but that is so hard to achieve. Believe me you will get there. The hard thing for people in our situation to accept is the sudden change to reality for no reason It`s called SHOCK. You will come to terms with it. Then you will build a better you. Everybody posts this and at your stage you cannot accept it but you will. Tonight I cooked myself a stirfry (Me in the kitchen-hopeless)but I have done, it amongst other things. Believe me you will get there. I am now at the stage where I think if W comes home O.K if not I`ll survive. Don`t overthink this thing Purr you have no control I know you don`t want to hear this "Think about you" Regards Colin
