most likely out of religious conviciton more than emotions, S wants to keep the family in tact. She wants me to come back, with assurances and promises never to stray again. This much is probably feasible.

S also wants more affection, "I Love yous", hugs, simple conversation, me expressing an interest in her and her aspirations. These things are harder for me. They need to come from the heart.

Oh yeah, and S above all wants honesty and sincerity. At present, she can't get this, and also get the above affection. Just ain't in me.