You're right though. Oftentimes, I do tend to blame myself for how things turned out. It's hard not to. For quite some time, H frequently cast blame onto me for having decided his life for him....his actual words....by having children, buying a house as our family grew, etc. Sometimes I'm successful at thinking, 'Ok, whatever, H.' and let it go. Other times, I am not so good at it.
Many words from my H have left a lasting impression, and unfortunately, not a positive one.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell