I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

I do realize what good advice I am getting from GF, and I really, really appreciate it. I am hoping that our EAP library has the book that she suggested as I have checked our local libary and bookstore for After the Affair as well as this and they are not available, I can order them online if need be.

I am doing better today but then again, I went to bed at 7:30 how much could I screw up :-)

"I see another positive here. Even though you had to ask, H told you about his contact with OW. He was open with you because perhaps he wanted to be when he could've just lied and said someone else sent the fax. Seems to me like he's trying, neecy."

I think he is trying too and then every once in awhile I am blown away and I have an internal struggle between whether I was just being led astray all along or if he just had a backslide as far as the "helping" of this needy friend.