I have not checked on you in awhile and i am glad to to see that you are ok for the most part. I am right there with you about the anger and resentment. How do you let go of that? I hate to keep crying about things being fair or unfair, but I really do feel like H gets to walk away and I get left trying to hold it all together. I have to hold it together for me and my son. I guess this is a down day for me because i have failed yet another test in class. I know that I should not call H to discuss, but hard not to because he was once my best friend and the person I commiserated with. Anywho when I told him he was very bland. He simply said "I am sorry you failed your test". I know I should not expect more and really what more can he do, but the fact of the matter is that part of why I feel like I am in a daze and screwing up is because of our situation. I don't blame him, but he plays a big role in it. He does not get it. That is where the anger comes in. I'ts kind of like you could not have waited until I was done with school to pull this sh!t. I now have to focus my prayers on becoming strong enough to finish school (in May) and trying to have a means to make a way for S and I . Anger, Anger, Anger. I know better and I have good days where I am able to move past it, but when I do poorly on tests and I know much of it is because of this madness I get furious. All you can do is say "sorry" and go about your day. Must be nice. I need to go dark! Sorry Jenny I stole your thread I just got on a roll and needed to vent. Send me some of your good advice if you can cuz I surely need it today.
