Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Kalni! You are so fab! No need to apologise at all, my greek countepart! We are the two fishes, trying to swim in calmer waters :-) I love that you are so perceptive and pick up on my emotions ! Its great being a Piscean, I also operate entirely on gut insticts and intuition. I dont know about you, but this DBing is so strange, because you have to ignore your usual inner voice, but operate through your mind instead...it takes getting used to!

Shall I tell you how my day has gone, to reassure you I am ok!? Firstly, I feel iller..I have been hugging the radiator and feeling sick and dizzy, so I have just had gallons of tea and biscuits. Secondly, I spoke to the Lawyer and he thinks these girls are trying to intimidate me, but have no grounds to and that I should give them notice to leave. Hurrah! I will, if the viewing goes well tommorow, as they want to move out anyway. So thats a relief.

Thirdly...talking of intuition, I decided to follow mine today and reach out to my BF and EMAIL him and actually say some more honest things. I wanted to do this and I didnt post to the site for once, I just did it! I guess I was thikning things were moving along and maybe its time to be brave (not as brave as kiss-em-full-on-the-lips-Kalni!) and inititiate some contact and monitor the results. I told him how sorry I was to hear he was down and asked him if it helped being back home on the weekend and that I hoped he felt ok today.

Well, he replied within 20 minutes, with a long email back!! He said he'd been meaning to email me all day (Yay!!) but was very very busy at work. He told me how bad he felt on Saturday, he'd gone home and got really really drunk (not again!) and upset a friend and lost his IPod (blimey!) and that he is still sleeping really badly.

He thanked me for doing some jobs for our house and told me hes leaving work now, but to contact him at the office tommorow! Oh and he was massively impressed I can now play Street Spirit :-)

He also said, directly, "Are you OK?" - so, shall I try be a bit more honest and reply to that question, as I havent done so far. I'm thinking of saying I am ok, but had a few problems with a robbery, but I'm not in the nick yet ! (translation - Police station) tell him but make light of it? Got to think of a response!

I'm feeling worse physically :-( but loads better emotionally :-) and I am soooo glad I didnt go to Berlin. Who wants to go to some fab foreign city and swan about enjoying the amazing works of modern art ? Huh! Not me! Well, ok, it would've been nice, but it was just really bad timing to be out of the country.

Kalni, love and hugs to you back!!

Ali x

PS: (((Jeff)))...NO WAY !!! Like I said before about that OM (British saying, apologies if it offends anyone...) I wouldnt p*ss on him if he was on fire !! ;-)