I just need to keep my interest level up. She is starting to win the game of being nasty to me so I react in a bad way so she can justify her decision and make me lose interest. Sometimes I look at her and love her so much and other times I look at her and want to spit!
I do love her and even more love my kids more than anything in the world. I feel like I am living in a nightmare. I deserve love and compasion.
