My issue is that I am convinced that I have never been in love with my W, and that my indiscretion was 2 parts Exit, and one part true Love for the first time (with the AP).
Are you sure that this isn't merely the well-publicized "rewriting of marital history"? Have you written love notes/letters/cards to your wife, pre-affair? If "yes," were your words sincere at the time?
Just curious, since it's a physiological fact that affairs awash your brain in endorphines that skew reality.
