Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Kalni...I am worried about doing anything to jeopordise how he views our sitch as it feels like its hanging by a thread right now ! But theres no way of knowing whether he would've cared or not.

But also, its the worst time to go away right now..remember my tenants that got burgarled? I was worried about going away because of that, and sure enough I got hit with a letter today saying I am in breach of my contract (I'm not!). They're trying to blame me. I'm stressed and waiting to speak to a solicitor. I knew that I would get hit with letters on my return, so I decided not to go...and I was right!

My tenants say they dont want any more visits, but they signed and agreed I could show buyers around. Yesterday I showed a buyer round and he loved it..they want a second viewing tommorow, which I will have to do, if I can get the tenants to agree! It would be a massive relief to get the flat sold.

I have noticed that I have been negative since last week. I think the eclipse did affect me (it hit my Moon almost exact!) and it has left me feeling shaken and emotional. I think everything sort of caught up with me. Its like I have been on "high alert" in some kind of survival mode, since this all started back in September. I have been very concious and aware of every day, every feeling, every pain and hurt. I feel like I have been on the edge of something for months, expecting the worst, in some kind of flight or fight mode, when really, the worst already happened, he left! I feel tired and ill and now stressed by L letters !!

There is a Mercury conjunct Venus coming up in Aquarius soon, so for Leos (my BF) this traditionally would mean "talking about emotional issues with a significant other", specifically, things that had gone unsaid previously, to clear the air or speak up emotionally. Its also about money, as Venus rules money.

I guess I am expecting him to speak to me, and maybe also, I will sell the flat! I dont know if I did the right thing not to go away, but considering I have to fight my tenants legally and also, must do this viewing tommorow, I probably was right not to go! I'm sorry you think I am a wimp :-( I am struggling a bit!