Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

Guys...I dont think I can go becuase...THATS WHERE THE OM MOVED TO !!!! And my BF had resentments about all that, naturally, and was very hurt that I went there TWICE in the past 3 years all after the EA (with a little bit of nearly PA at the end I have to add) broke up. He was very sensitive about me going last time.

With things so tenuous between us, it just doesnt feel safe to rub his nose in it !!?? I was saying to RTL..why meet a waitress for a coffee...can you be sure how your W would react if she found out? Well, I cant be sure how my BF would react when I tell him where I am/have been (and I dont think I can just ignore his messages/emails after we are back in contact now and I cant lie). I really dont feel good abut telling him..thats why I havent so far! It feels really scary, I wonder if it wont bring up all those old feelings and push him away again, just as he is reaching out a little bit. And I am feeling very poorly today!

It just feels like a risky thing to do right now. And its not as if I havent been before, I've been twice recently !