I really have come pretty far...when H dropped the bomb, wow, I thought my life was over...now I'm taking it one day at a time..I'm hoping to come out of it with my marriage in tact but we'll have to see...I really don't see any changes in H towards me at all but again I don't know what to look for...He is looking older, tired, and just not interested in his family at all...you know...withdrawn....what stage is that? Cause I believe that is where he is but who knows for sure...that's just a guess...so let's see...I've been dealing with this drama since Jan. of 07...almost 14 months now...way too long...and I felt the distancing a little before that, after I had my hysterectomy...I even asked him if he was cheating on me...and of course he said no...I believed him because my H would NEVER do anything like that to me....Women...trust your gut...it's always right...I'm telling you...but I think maybe we needed to get to this place...to learn about ourselves...and I have learned tons...I am a calmer person...things don't get to me like they used to and I kind of just go with the flow now...complete 360 for me...I used to be very nervous, worried, stressed, high strung...and of course I still worry but not about the norm...I worry about my kids, and my M...I want my family back and I told my kids I wasn't giving up...that I was fighting for what I believed in, and I believe in commitment, loyalty, and marriage. I believe I am teaching my kids a good lesson, that marriages aren't perfect, and they are hard work, but in the end it's all worth the sacrafice...it's what's right, and what's good... I am a good person with a heart of gold...I hope H sees this and his heart heals and he comes back to the best love he has ever had or ever will....if not...it's his loss...and his loss is someone elses gain...wow...I kind of sound stuck up...hmmmmm...could that be some confidence I've been lacking...it's the new Treese.. and I'm here to stay...Watch out world....HERE I COME!!!
I'm not going down without a big fight. ..it's all worth it in the end, and it's not the end until I say it is....and of course I get rid of that poison ivy on the the other side of the fence..
((((hugs))))
Treese
Last edited by Treese; 02/26/0802:30 AM.
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
..it's all worth it in the end, and it's not the end until I say it is....and of course I get rid of that poison ivy on the the other side of the fence.. 
