I am sorry to hear you are feeling "pants". I think it is very normal to feel lost...!!! I think if i had any contact at all I would feel way more lost in my DBing than I am.
It sounds like two really positive interactions with H. Is this way more than usual, or am I just imagining things? If it is more than usual, do you think you might be feeling lost because you are getting to see him and have fun with him, but things are not resolved, so inside it feels like crazy crazy thunderstorm of disappointment-hope-despair-anger-sadness- lonely-where-is-my-h-oh-he'shereonthecouch-but-he's-not"here"??
I know you are frustrated with him wearing the ring, but do you think it could mean something positive, not just that "he doesn't have the nerve to say anything"? I dunno... maybe I am projecting!
FYI, I would give my firstborn child to be able to watch LOST with my B right now. I am SO JEALOUS. !!! Not to mention the snow angels!!
Hang in there, Beth. YOU are going to be OK no matter what.
