Hi...long time no talk....just popped in to say a few things...
First, H is not thinking about ANYONE BUT HIMSELF. He's not doing anything to intentionally hurt you...he's looking out for his Number 1...himself. He can't see beyond that right now...he needs time and space.
If he looks like S#$%...goood! He should. He isn't sleeping well, probably is not eating right...his mind is probably racing with the guilt of what he has done and is doing. That's ok. That's his bed...let him lie in it.
Act As If.....things don't bother you, you're not upset with him, the IPOD doesnt' exist. I know it's hard but try not to let these things get to you. He knows not what he does...really.
Start each day with the things you are thankful for. Then be thankful you are in the right frame of mind to pull things together for the fight of your life. You can do this. H is going to see much more clearly one of these days and you need to be ready for that!
Hugs to you....I think you are doing remarkable!
Love ya,
BA
Me:43 H:48 M:24 yrs T: 26 yrs 2 kids ILYNILWYA 8-07 - MOW 9-07 H moved out 8-2-08 Back 8-18-08 Affair continues Back home but not emotionally
