Just to add another question...since it seems like this NC will be permanent (because she will have the same restriction against me), then do you think I should write her a letter before the divorce is final (which I can do via the lawyer)? I wouldn't know what to say.. I mean just a couple of months ago we were together and what I thought was in love. Then all this happened. Am I in denial or unhealthy b/c I feel this way when everything has happened already? Deep down, I just feel she is mentally sick and needs help. She needs to know that I still love her. DB doesn't really address this issue, per say. I mean I can improve myself, yes...But I may never talk to the woman again. The same woman that I made a promise to God to honor her in sickness and in health.
