Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

Hmm..yes the mortgage can wait! Thanks for your concern. I'm not doing too good, I am wondering whether I may have depression, I cant seem to pull myself out of this negative feeling. People say its positive that he is contacting me, and all I see is, yes but he is still not saying to me he has any doubts. And on top of that...its nearly 4 months since he left and I am not any where near over it! I still cry alot and miss him terribly. I wish I could be as blase and positive as you Kalni! I am actually feeling like a bit of a failure this evening as I just cant seem to pull myself together and either get over him, or at least get on with my life without it still being so important. I think about him every day.

I've broken with men in the past, two that I lived with, but I was fine after a few weeks. Not still crying 4 months later.

I think I feel too exhausted to go away. It would be a bit rubbish not to go though. I havent texted him.